hopefully this is the one post i will ever mention it. HOPEFULLY.
lately, i've been. infactuated. a one sided. thingy.
and. i'm trying to stop. because there is no use of me to actually consider it.
i talked to my two guy friends, and. they said don't &
even my two girlies said so too.
i make it such a huge problem, because i take it seriously.
truth is, how could i stop? what if i can't?
with the many uses of technology, my mind says no. but my heart say, yes. i'm forcing myself to stop. i tried. i had minor breaks.
i rather not risk my friendship. really. i rather not. i know how it would end.
i saw him today. we looked at each other. but. i only talked to him for one purpose. to know that it would stop. our flirtyness.
my friends consider it a change, it's been a year. a guy. that i actually like. but i'm going to stop. at the moment, it felt good. to have the sweet attention. it's junior year, i should focus. i'm going to NOT be taken by this year, so far it's going good.
i wish it wasn't so complicated.
this was never me in the beginning (of high school).
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