just let it fall.

it contributes to everything. your first meeting with someone. the first conversation. the movements you do. you can't escape this feeling. the sudden desire to just stop everything and take a breather. let it fall to the pieces it goes. it's hard, to let go. your walls are built so high so there's no access to them. you isolate yourself so that no one can possible affect you. however, it's too late. with no one there, your left alone. because you were blinded at the fact that no one took the time to want to be there. everything was beautiful and everything hurt.

are you ever happy?

please don’t lose yourself within this agony your facing. you’re the only one i got right now and i feel it. the fact that your slipping away saddens me, because i am left to watch it.

tgif;

& spring break is coming to an end :(

getting ready to go out with the family. queens & manhattan. hopefully buy useful utensils for my room so my third start of junior year is not like the epic fail past. my break was something good & fun, although it's not entirely over just yet:)
hoping to catch a glimpse of the new york city skyline as i go over the bridge.

i'm more happier:) that's great news to my heart&soul. the past few months have been a mental break down, but i'm glad everything is slowly getting better. i guess it was meant to happen, for every down, there's an up. my dad would rather say, just prepare for the stress overload that might come to my ship. i'm prepared. right now, i'm smiling to myself as i write this post. i woke up feeling great with the sunshine peeking through my window. sleep deprived is no longer an illness, it has vanished.
-splashesofjoy;